their air

and three more coming, perhapse tomorrow they'll be posted

I’ve been writing lately and there’s one word I’ve been writing
I’ve been perfecting it,
Maybe it’ll be the first thing I do perfect

It might seem like a lot
But it means a lot to me so just don’t talk just listen

Its come out of so many bled of so many
Just spat from so many
Just felt from so many
Its hate…. Yes hate… I hate everyone

Yeah these scribbles I call writing…
I wrote them fighting
My emotions…
They’re truth for the moment
The light I’ve been holding
My emotions
Sure their not much to look at but trust me I’m not much more
Nothing much to look at…

My personal rendition
Of life,
Maybe worth living…
Its my history of transition from love to participation in hate
So forget it and remember I’m gone

I guess I hurt you.
Now I’ll leave you alone
Now you’ve hurt me, please leave me alone
I didn’t mean to…
Please just leave me alone
I guess you hurt you… Hearts of stone…

Ican’t see through you…
You don’t how it is
You can’t see through my feelings you can’t feel what I feel
So don’t tell me the truth its whats what to you
I don’t want to hear it just keep it to you

So I feel so apart from this situation
Yeah I feel so afar from the world say I’m par
I’m just feeling so far
I’m falling apart…
So please leave me alone..
Just leave
I’m soft…
Just leaving it all to try and repair it
Just feeling it all and tring to forget it

It’s the way it brings me down
The way your visage frowns
When I’m looking for your love…

Just sitting
Apart from everyone
Alone yeah,
Just living apart from havoc, slums…

I’m slipping, into coma
Fighting it off I don’t know what I’ve become…

What you made me…
What you pushed me through
When you bade me goodbye I thought I’d never see me through

When you forgave me,
My life was anew
And I forgot…
I forgot I loved you

Now forgive me world if I’m not worth your trouble
My eyes are burnt to the double
I can not see your face or the smile the sweet hateful embrace

Society just weighting me down…
Yeah friends their weighting me down

I wanna be alone!
I wanna feel alone!
I wanna no one’s there to hate me I wanna be alone

So detached..
Flowered was our life
We couldn’t see it coming
It was just a bloom,
We would love it
We could let it go
But no
It was there

Once together, forever apart,
That’s the way it was…
Right from the start
I couldn’t see the end,
As if it would never show
But I was wrong it was just around the bend

Yeah I was wrong, its just around the bend…

I read my books all over
Again again and all over
Them I cry
I sigh what have I done

Did I really deserve you?
Did I really deserve this?
It hurts, yeah, it hurts, but its because I loved you..

So please, tell me please tell me please please don’t go just stay another moment I want to know.
Did you know I loved you?
Did you know I thought I could care and never forget your problems,
Did you know I was here to surrender to you….

I guess your hurting to bad to feel the pain the pain you’ve shot me with now its all the same you can’t tell I am here maybe death is near but whats it to you, you just don’t care…

I’m sorry… if I hurt you… I only wanted to help you….
I loved you, I cared for you, I thought that this would be good for you..
I’m not perfect. I know.. I know just leave me alone … alone… alone…

so excuse me please for these lies i see
cause their true to me their what i see
i'm not lying

its true
in my mind
sometimes
i used to live over there
in her old house of sorrows

in her old house of sorrows
:
i used to leave it occasionally
now i don't even bother

to ride that commuter train
:
to happiness from sorrow
to remember the happy scenes

and the part i loved so much
the thoughts used to follow you
like a hated addiction

the beauty carved out of absolutes i could never claim, or even envision..

my life was the saddest song
in the shape of a tear
i thought i was worth it all

but its all I’ll forget it

i hope I’ll be laughing now

just sleeping on a carpet
in someone's apartement
my parent's
they were worried so
they were all just strangers...
i said i'd live it right
and i went and betraied them
you know we're high on demand
people who suffer

cause we don't like to argue
and we're quick to surrender
i think i'll call tonight
if i still had my number
my thoughts have always close in mind
maybe i'll skip summer
i should never be embarrased by thoughts i remember
they're just memories in my mind
i wish i'd rememeber

Missus Autumn

Counting the dead leaves as they fall to the soil
A cold chill runs up and down my spine
We must prepare for all the glow you spoil
Why can’t your frostiness be more kind

Your fancifulness hides in the dark
Your colors are vivid but deceitful
Your bitterness sure to leave a mark
Your elegance is rugged as steel wool

Missus Autumn, you threw a tantrum

A name’s synonymous with collapse
Coming to greet the death of all that’s great
To confide in you is to fall in your traps
Though you are picturesque, you’ll never be my mate

Your cruelty is one that makes me want to cringe
Your splendor, to embrace your distinct approach
Your spitefulness never fails to make me unhinge
Your cleverness opposed to all the hearts you poach

Missus Autumn, you asked for ransom

Never one, never two, but always three
When the blizzard upsets all in sorrow
I have been waiting for you eagerly
But I hope your stay is up by tomorrow

Your concealed intentions truly frighten me
Your mockery of the other terms
Your fresh tactics and methodology
Your face is silken but your soul is of worms

Missus Autumn, you’re so unwelcome
Missus Autumn, you made me lonesome
Missus Autumn, you’re so irksome
Missus Autumn, you stole my freedom